Showing posts with label monsters. Show all posts
Showing posts with label monsters. Show all posts

17.10.10

Within Illusion, Everything Has A Reason

Some recent writing, for your consumption:


INSPIRATIONS <3

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we unfolded the roadmap that bridged the head & the heart in a divine union of sorts. intensities are always found in mirrors, the zero point between new memories and the vacancy of the spotted, rocky canyons. your eyes were always mine, i never had much use for the earthbound kind because they could never "see" much of me anyways. in the realm of vision i could always feel two ways at once without getting too deep into either polarity. fresh opportunities are such strange beasts, creatures of their own electricity. rainbows rage in me while the stars dot every vein with a new wave brillance, a locomotive bloodstained from the intensity of our youth. as young galaxies we lived in those realms of vision.

i found myself suddenly awake in the earthbound plane, the weight of it all cusped neatly in the flesh of my stomach, a churning monster of its own accord. the dreamstate is simply another reality, the reminder shakes the opaque dollhouseland around this physicality that never felt mine. so brand new, i found myself down by the railways where trains jumped tracks just to avoid me. as expansive as i was energetically, to these mortals i was the intergalatic equivalent of a dead end, a stone cold crash into a great wall head on. around me all the energies simply dissapated. when its not your time the universe will find a way to make you survive no matter how hard you demand an early exit point. step up, spin the wheel of the great re-arranger!

everything you could ever imagine or desire will arrive to you crumbled on your metaphorical doorsteps, trembling and weakened in the dead of the night. reclusive and once removed, at least fed-ex deliveries can be timely. out here our hearts are the only metronomes spitting the icing on the cupcakes in the most backwards of ways. a new memory suddenly swelled up in the center of my chest. our heart's desires danced in shadows, favoring the corners of the eye's peripheal visions to dancefloors and slutty discotheques. pulsing in our skulls, we all sang "we are the music, it is us!" a frequency never intended to be heard outside ourselves. 

the thought pollution of our minds never fail to send untimely reminders when the distractions became great enough....the people of earth are so quick to disregard how to listen to the symphonies built into the makeup of their souls. each wooden tie, each shrapnel nail, the screeching of tiresome metals and panting of coal coated lungs were distinct pockets of celluar memory. in the timeline of persona the cult of personality was born. it was the dawn of the great distraction, the decided disarray, using chaos to control. i stood in those trainyards outside of duality, me myself and an undone you, gazing into the full color spectrum. our rainbows have always had many colors ourside the rainbows their eyes can see. perception transfers to timeless moments in multiple dimensions where visions are in so many ways beyond eyesight. provocative and unquestionable, the luminious sparkling depth to the energies of ordinary things. the burdensome, slow moving locomotives that were the poster childen of a distant physical sanctuary. they creeped on by as i rode out the tremors of release. the only constant in my life was that the shifting waves always returned to the freedom and release.

one thing i learned, or remembered is that reliance on external teachings will often throw you off your own path and the voice of your own essence as soul. you cannot be free if you are subscribed to anything other than your own inner divinity. there is freedom in destruction...the destruction of illusions, the illusory 3d forgery that glues together perception of this world. the realms of the heart are fluidly inaccessible through intellectual devices of the mind. the struggle no longer applies when you are aware of your unity, the interconnectedness of all because everything existing in the realms of illusion falls to the wayside.


tarot readings. larger version on twitpic

Legitimate pictures from last weekend's circus festival are coming soon too, here's a few sneak peeks. My tent was so busy I hardly had any time to photograph!

Special thanks and love to anyone & everyone who came out for a reading from the mystical Wunderkammer Gypsy Den, picked up some jewelry or just brought their electric colorfield love out in full force for a magical and surreal evening under the stars. 

Wunderkammer vendor area

all the people standing in line for tarot/intuitive readings!

inside the tent. special thanks to leandra drumm for making such a wonderful sign!

patchwork tent and lightshow...

the queen and king of hearts made an appearance...

treats from the cupcake peddlers...

our lovely stilt-walking arachnid girl...

and fairyland performers. let them eat cake <3

peace, love and rainbow rays,
-Kafka Vodka

16.8.10

boys and girls, boys and bows.


pretty monsters, beautiful creepers.





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STREET ART/installations.
Impact point, soul star: a splattering of interglactic tidalwaves & braindance sonatas



mmm, brains.....hungry yet? :p

22.4.09

RE: DARKNIGHT

this is a repost of something i put on myspace early april:


in numerology, the number nine represents the cycle of returns. the number multiplied by any other number then reduced is always nine. the nine is the untouchable ideal, ending and beginning all in one, before and after the result is the same regardless of the path: the place you begin and the place you end, the filler stuffed between can be just about anything. it cannot be destroyed, reduced, diminished by any other force in nature or systematic frame of reference.


so i'm stuck on repeat in the filler stuck between, the most insignificant part of the whole damn process, double stuck, doubletime, double trouble.


do we choose to be victims of our predatory minds under moonlight, disillusioned by lurking shadows and remain unaware of our potential to escape. do we subconsciously choose in the darkness to become unsavory bedfellows with those bottomless wells and black holes that we are constantly prowling through, searching endlessly on an eternal loop. an infestation of destructive intellect, a short in the circuit, the shipwreck is going under, oh no there's bugs in the wires. they hatch in that seldom touched space between whats filled in with shades of grey in a warm 9x8=72 7+2= 9 percent, now immune to the current that runs through the wires.


tonight is one of many nights spent laying down in a dark room, eyes burning and mind on fire. shooting stars of anguish are completely unprovoked...it is unnecessary. they flash for a quick second, tiny haunting monsters cutting through the air screeching, the glimmer of knives and the sounds that sparkle. the only dreamworld i know is the concept of sleep, so foreign and strange. the life around me has become the dream but someone else is the ringleader of this circus of irony and twisted fate.  the longer you ignore or refuse to confront the monsters, the more of a significance they take on...the larger they grow. the nine giant swords of anguish and self imposed cruelty once again loom over the bed i comfort in.... this midnight train to self destruction has jumped the tracks.


when a light worker walks the shadowlands one too many times....


in the absence of light, we destroy. enchance the detrimental, we prefer anonymity.  in one moment we can surrender to the abyss so we no longer visually see ourselves or others....we must learn another way to see. despite all the shadows lurking and after effects glowing hauntingly, in all the detriment the darkness brings it forces us to experience in a whole new way. subconscious thoughts come to the surface in strange new ways, the recurring themes of destruction become so obviously bright in our newly begun double lives. sometimes destruction is the only way to bring about awareness, while at other times consciousness must be thrown upon us in the most unpleasant ways before we are able to gain the necessary awareness to be able to finally move on.


so i've moved on, am i still haunted?

how much longer can i destroy myself when there's hardly anything left to destroy....

anyways.

i got some fckin issues these days


xoxo